I never meant to hurt you , or make you cry .
I only meant the best . But sometimes the best things in mind turns out to be the worst mistakes we'll ever make .
I love you , honestly with all my heart .
I would do anything for you . I would go against my own for you .
I would willingly go out of my way just to meet you , even if the consequences for me afterwards are undesirable . Many times i've left my friends at school just to be with you . Many times i chose not to meet my guys just to meet you . Uncountable times i've been scolded for coming home late cause' i sent you home , precisely because that extra 20 minutes i spend with you would still mean the world to me . I would really go out of my way for you . But for once , I wanted you to come here to meet me . For once i didn't wanna go out so far just to see you . And im sure you know for what reasons i don't wish to go out far . And that one time i just wanted you to come , instead of me going , you wouldn't do so . Why ? Is it because you're afraid of coming home half an hour late ? Is it because you don't want a long bus ride home ? Or is it because you rather have a boyfriend with a heartache than an earful of scolding ?
Is it too much to ask ? Is it ?
But please don't apologize . I'm fine , I'll deal with it . The same way i've always dealt with it .
Im sorry if I hurt your emotions by blogging this , but it is my blog.
And it's a place for me to express my emotions .
Writing always makes me feel better .
I'm not angry nor disappointed with you . Not anymore . I'm okay now . I just needed to vent all the emotions . I still love you with all my heart .
I hope you understand .

With love , Khairul ♥