And i'd like to say that today was a really meaningful day for me .

it made me realize that in order for life to carry on smoothly , alot of sacrifices has to be made .

Sacrifices to make our lives easier . Sacrifices to make the lives of the people around us easier .

And to think back , i have made alot of sacrifices this year . Mainly towards The damned O's .

I sacrificed alot of time to study for it . Pouring all my hard work and dedication .

But i did not regret a single thing . Sacrificing has it's rewards , and i'm thankful i did .

Anyway , im super sad . I pity those sheep . they were so cute .

And they had to be slaughtered .

BUT HEY ! COOL LAH THEY KENA SLAUGHTER !

like the blood blood all dripping .

And you know , at the mosque , they had this basket .

uhuh . basket of sheep's heads . SERIOUS :D

SHEEP'S HEAD !

but still very sad .

but they never struggle you know .

i think they knew they were gonna get slaughtered , but they just kept quiet .

But they did mbaak mbaak abit in the cage .

Bye Bye sheep . You'd probably be dead by the time i post this picture of you .

But it's okay , You'll always be in my heart .

I mean my tummy .

WHY GOD WHY !

okay i'm being unreasonable here . i already have a job . .

But i work only on weekends .

and the money is enough for my spending for the weekdays .

So im like practically living week to week .

BUT I WANT A WEEKDAY JOB !

not to earn money . just to pass the time and gain experience .

like duh , why else would i wanna work .

but of course , i could just lepak during the weekdays and grow fat , again .

and then go exercise to lose the weight again .

And repeat the cycle until school starts .

or i can just lepak and grow fat .

Having a new identity for poly or jc

" THE FAT BOY WHO NOBODY WANTS TO BE FRIENDS WITH :D "

no offence to fat people okay . i was once fat . i know how painful it is .

Lets see when im fat , who are the real people who wanna be friends with me .

Who are the real girls who would wanna go out with me .

See , i think far ahead . heh heh heh .

or maybe i just end up having fat friends and a fat girlfriend .

but i dont mind . as long as im happy . fat people are happy people , with happy bellies .

Oh and fyi , i have a big belly . it can expand to like 2 or 3 times the original size .

Thats goes to show i have a big appetite .

so , anyone wanna grow fat with me ?






















i was only joking . im sooo not gonna grow fat purposely . unintentionally maybe .

Life is contradicting don't you think so ?

For a moment you feel that everything around you is going fine , and you're happy .

then you start to realize that these happy things are actually your downfall .

you grow too dependent on everything making you happy , and when it begins to fade away , it's like you lost hope . Its like you're life comes crashing down . bursting into fragments which become impossible to fix back .

But these are the kind of challenges that God offers us to let us learn . Everyone learns from mistakes . If everything in life goes smoothly and there are no faults , you don't learn .

Most of the time , we learn to love . To understand the other partner . To recognize his or her significance to our presence . To offer our love , to show how much we care for the other partner . Just so our partner knows how much he or she means to us . But we don't learn just by reading about it . We learn from experience . Nobody gets it perfect the first time . Not even me .

We live to learn to love .

Another important chapter of our lives that all of us will go through is meeting new friends .

Everybody makes friends . It's that immediate connection between people that allows us to communicate and socialize . Most of the times friends make you happy . We share jokes together , experiences together , problems together . To work as a team and move forward . Together , we build the stepping stones of our lives up to our highest peak , determining who we are . Friends either make you or break you . That is why you have to choose your friends wisely . Mix with the wrong type of friends and you'll be influenced for life . But for the good or the bad , friends always make you laugh till your tummy hurts .

We live to learn to laugh .

And one chapter that everybody has to go through is losing . Everybody loses , but nobody wants to . But loss is inevitable . From losing in a simple game of chess , to losing the ones you hold dear to your heart . Losing in a simple game of chess - seems like a game only , but it can show about your character . About how big your pride and ego is . If you're okay with losing in a game of chess , and you don't mind playing again to challenge yourself , it shows you're a person of humble character . A person who is forward looking and always perseveres . Somebody who learns from their mistakes . But if you're the kind of person who gets mad and does not want to accept defeat , it shows how egoistic you are of a person . You don't want to accept the fact that others are better than you . You are persistent that you're still the best . Get what i'm trying to say ?

Losing the ones you love - its a constant phase in life that we all go through . As humans , we can't avoid death . At some point in time , we will definitely have to say goodbye to friends and families who are no longer with us . But we have to stay strong and move on . Definitely you will feel remorseful about losing the ones you love . But we have to be happy for them . They are now on their way to a much safer and happier place . We should be thankful that they are now in the hands of God . If we love them , we'll let them go . It takes alot of strength and will to accept the fact they are no longer with us . But we must . Where there is life , there is death .

We live to learn to lose .

I've been waking up really late nowadays . the earliest i can wake up is 11 . the latest i wake up is 4 . i dunno . i think i die or something when i sleep . and fat angels bring me back to life . i wake up late cos the fat angels take a long time to drag their asses to my body .

Lately i've been hooked onto facebook . i dont know why but the social interview questions are really interesting ! i just like answering questions .

maybe i miss school so much thats why .

and you know . i really miss learning science . everything i do nowadays , it makes me think of science . like when im trying to fry something . then i heat the oil , and im like " whoaa . . i wonder how it's like to be a molecule of vegetable oil " . then when im trying to make milo . i think like " hmm what can i do to quicken the speed of reaction . i wonder if there's an edible catalyst " . like everything lor . and not only science . other subjects too . i went to the beach yesterday for awhile and i look at the waves and i was thinking " how come there's a piece of wood sticking out of the water in the middle there ? there must be a sandbar underneath . " and also " eh cool or what ! look at the breakwaters ! the waves eroded it away sia ! Woohoo ! "

i miss studying .

and i miss NCC too . alot .

i miss NCC more than i miss studying .

i miss the teachers too .

OH OH ! AND I MISS THE AUNTY AT THE DRINK STALL

" Lai poipoi ni yao se mo ? aah xie xie ni ah poipoi "

okay seriously , now what .

lets see , its only been a week of the holidays . and im blank already on what to do .

i have like until April .

what the hell am i supposed to do .

anyone wanna go watch a movie or something ?

cause im bored , like really bored .

so . . now what ?

been sleeping the whole day .

bye

their moods are inevitable ,

one moment they would be as happy as a lark ,

and in a blink of an eye they begin to sulk .

haven't you ever pondered or contemplated at this bizzare happenings ?

i mean seriously its just peculiar to me .

it can be said a woman's mind is like a miniature circuit breaker .

everything may seem to be working just fine but in an instant it can flip .

and once it flips , whoa its like a total black out for the guy .

The poor innocent lad has to suffer with her tantrums .

the only thing he can do is to compromise the situation fit to the girl's needs .

Just to give in and make her feel more relaxed .

but that isn't a foolproof method .

im sure it wouldn't work on every lady out there .

So im stumped , what should a guy do when the girl has a sudden mood swing .

Somebody illuminate me please

Nickelodeon has no cool shows anymore .

how boring can life get ?

i can't wait for next wednesday .

its soccer soccer soccer .

lets go kraaaazzzy !

Actually , there is something i wanna rant about .

I'm torn between 2 sides .

What I want in life and what my mom wants in life .

My mom wants me to carry on to JC to further my studies .

She wants me to take science and become a doctor or whatever .

well , i do want to expand my boundaries for science ,

but i dont wanna be a doctor .

i want something hands on .

i wanna go to poly and take up chemical engineering .

Thats what i want .

but you know what , i dont mind going to JC .

Make my family proud .

But i'll have a look at my O level results first .

If my score can just allow me to scrape into JC ,

then i dont wanna go to JC .

If my score is fantastic and i can make it into a GOOD JC ,

then i'll go .

If not i'll just take up C.E in polytechnic .

So what how ?

JC or Poly ?

damn

err . . its starting to get disturbing . .

area below my nose lah .

dirty minded people .

sheesh .

ANYWAY

i'm like overflowing with joy .

im so happy im gay .

yay im gay .

fuck .

but everyone should be happy .

I ONLY HAVE LIKE 3 PAPERS LEFT !

what seemed like an eternity , is going to end in just 6 days .

shocking i know .

im left with the science mcq paper ,

and the malay paper .

malay paper doesnt really count . so i take it as i have 1 paper left .

YAY ONE PAPER LEFT .

so far i dont have much regrets for the O levels .

only slight doubts about humanities .

humanities suck .

only idiots and dogs like the subject .

im more happy for science .

I WILL TRY MY BEST FOR A DISTINCTION FOR SCIENCE

i will make these 3 people very proud

1 : MR TAN WEEEEEE SIANG

2 : MISS DAPHNE CHAN

3 : CHUA CHENG YING

actually more or Mr Tan and Cheng Ying my tutor . they really gave me hope for my sciences . thanks alot ah . if you happen to be reading this post .

Miss Chan not so much . I'm just thankful that she doesnt give up on me .

Although sometimes her lessons dont make sense to me .

eh her lessons quite contradicting leh . one moment she'll say this but another moment she'll say that . but i always pay close attention to what she says . its helpful .

OH OH OH !

MR TAN MR TAN !

IF YOU'RE READING THIS , I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL YOU .

actually ah , its more of a secret .

i dotn know whether you'll think of it as disturbing or sweet .

you know everytime i do physics questions , when i read the question .

i imagine its like you personally asking me the question .

you know your voice that one .

the very happy comforting voice .

then its like you keep prompting me the question .

Then i seem to understand better and answer better you know .

like really really .

thanks ah Mr Tan !

you the best ~

dont worry , i'll do my best to make you proud .

A for science !

. . .

C5 for humans . . . . . .

BOOO HUMANS !! BURN IN HELL !!