27 September 2009
How does it feel to have tried your best , but to know that nobody appreciates it .
Nobody really cares whether you succeed or fail .
To them they don't see the importance us trying .
It sucks let me tell you that .
It really really sucks .
I try my best every single day i have left ,
to study and revise for my upcoming O levels .
But nobody in this household seems to care .
They think i'm selfish .
They even reprimand me .
Just because i want to have a bright future .
I'm doing the best i can to succeed .
To make everyone's lives easier .
but they just don't seem to see it .
" look at your cousin , he at least helps with the catering business . see what he earns . $120 . Unlike you , sit at home all day with your book . not even earning anything . "
Does it look like i've never helped ?
For the past few years i've been helping the damn business ,
neglecting my studies for god's sake .
Just tolerating my failing grades .
To account for all the weekends i could have actually used for revision or to study ,
I wouldn't be in such a rush now .
And when i help over the weekends with the tough job , i get tired physically and mentally .
When i turn up for school on mondays and tuesdays , i can't even think properly .
my body's too tired to even do anything .
But did you care ? Did you try to understand my situation ?
For once , i'm taking charge of my life and im trying to decide my future .
I need time off for myself . but you say im selfish .
You still force me to help the business over the weekends .
How fun is that ?
Just for a few months i need to prioritise my studies .
But noooo . . all the negativity comes into place
Amazing . Simply Amazing .
Yes mom , i'm selfish .
im purely selfish .
I only care about my life and my future .
Whether i become successful or i dont .
I'm selfish .
You're not .
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