28 June 2009
power rangers
i have no name for this guitar .
what i'm a loudmouth . . i can be an amplifier . right ?
arw arw arw
Suzie why won't you smile ?
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22 June 2009
i can honestly say that i did not regret attending today's motivational workshop .
Even though its only the first day , its already given me a reality check .
my O Levels are in 4 months time .
and what am i still doing ?
hanging on a thread .
there's a fine line between actually studying ,
and just telling yourself that you will study .
im not ashamed to say that im just telling myself that i will study .
to earn my success , i first gotta learn to accept .
i have to accept the fact that im not doing much to fulfil my dreams .
i have to accept the fact that failure awaits .
i have to accept the fact that i have to do something with my life .
whats my dreams ?
what are my goals ?
my main goal , is to be a man who can support my family and make them happy .
i want to pursue that happiness .
i want to see the proud look on my mother's face saying " thats my son "
i want that .
i want to see my mother happy , thats all .
i dont want her hard work to go down the drain .
i want to take over the family business and manage it well .
to be somebody whom people know is successful , has achieved something , and most importantly to be somebody who is happy .
My mother poured out her life's saving into starting this business .
I've seen how much she's endured to reach her goals .
and my mother is somebody whom i look up to .
i'm not going to let her down .
i know i wont .
friends come and go , some make you some break you .
but i know my family will always be there for me .
Of course i want to get married , have kids
and a wife who loves me .
and i also want to be that husband who can support his family with no worries .
i want to be that person whom my wife can rely on .
a father who would be there for his kids .
i want my children to know what its like to receive love from a father who cares .
i dont want them to grow up not knowing what love from a father feels like .
i want to be the one who makes them happy .
thats all .
my success , is to see the people around me happy ,
knowing i am part of their lives and i mean something to them .
and i'm going to do what it takes to achieve it .
first on my list is my mother .
i want to be that son who calls my mother on the phone telling her i did well for my O levels .
i want to bring back good grades , for her to know that i am gonna be somebody .
for her to know that i am somebody .
Today's workshop made me realise my deepest fear .
Losing the ones i love .
i dont want them apart from me .
to come up to the front of the class ,
and share my feelings with everybody in the workshop
to just let them know that even i have my barriers .
its not wrong to cry , its not .
I came to the front of the class and i cried .
i cried in front of everybody to share what i feel .
maybe im dealing with my own problems ,
but im sure everyone sitting there in that workshop has problems too .
some maybe even worse than mine .
but sharing my story with everyone , has somehow made me realise that i cannot let this barrier paralyze me from achieving success .
instead it should be motivating me .
4 months before my O Levels , right around this time .
i got to know my mother is diagnosed with diabetes .
and her diabetes was at the last stage .
my mother didn't go for an early check up , and it really tears me apart to know that alot is going to change .
Diabetes can bring about serious effects .
i dont feel the need to explain that .
but for my mother being the breadwinner of the family ,
its her who supports the family .
and if anything were to happen to her ,
who am i going to depend on ?
my father ?
im not saying i don't love my father , i do .
its just that i dont feel it from him .
i see my father once a week .
sometimes once every 2 weeks .
and even when i see him , we dont talk .
we dont have father son discussions .
he comes back home late , watches tv and does his own business .
the reason i dont think i can depend on my dad is the fact my dad works for my mother .
and if anything were to happen to my mother , what is my dad going to work as ?
at this age which company would hire somebody with no qualifications ?
i just fear the future and fear the changes .
everytime i try to get my mind straight ,
i keep losing track , knowing my mother is sick .
and the help i can give is limited .
its all up to her .
but that doesnt mean i must stop trying .
i still try to talk to my mother to change her lifestyle .
and at the same time change my lifestyle .
Diabetes is hereditary .
i might even get it if i dont watch my health .
Sometimes its okay to cry ,
to just let out your emotions ,
let everyone know whats holding you back .
and maybe some may be able to help you .
pick you up and keep you going .
but i know ,
success does not come easy ,
i have to work for it .
and i know i have to bear in mind what am i doing it for .
I'm doing it to see my family happy .
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13 June 2009
IM ANGRY !!!!!!!!!!!!BECAUSE IM HUNGRY !!!!!!!
A HUNGRY MAN IS AN ANGRY MAN !
TRUE GUYS ?
I'M IN NEED OF PROTIEN DAMN IT
GIVE ME A BIG FAT COW
PUT SOME SAUSE OVER IT
GRILL IT OR SOMETHING
AND PUT IT ON A PLATE .
I AM THAT HUNGRY .
GOSH .
I NEED TO FIND A WIFE WHO CAN COOK A COW .
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07 June 2009
painted with a solid Goldtop
with hot back and neck pickups
mahogany body and rosewood fretboard . ooh comfort .
sparkling frets .
heartwarming sunburst design .
the CLASSIC Gibson Les Paul Guitar .
Mummy can i have that for my birthday ?
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06 June 2009
1. Real name: Muhammad Khairul Bin Nordin
2. Nickname: K.Nods
3. Star sign: mmm . . virgo baybay
4. Male or female: Male
5. Primary school: East Spring primary school.
6. Secondary school: East Spring Secondary.
7. JC/POLY: ITE
8. Hair color: i have no hair
9. Long or short: if you're referring to my height , i'd say average . bout 1.74m
10. Loud or Quiet: Staff Sergeant very lound one okay . .
11. Sweats or Jeans: i dont sweat in my jeans
12. Phone or camera: Phone . cameras are boring
13. Health freak: name me one teenager boy who's a health freak
14. Drink or smoke: not to keen on answering that . . .
15. Do you have a crush on someone: No but i'd like to crush someone. . vent my anger
16. Eat or drink: Shit
17. Piercings: none
18. Tattoos: on my armpit
Have You Ever ;
19. Been in an airplane: i've been under an airplane
20. Been in a relationship: Yeah.
21. Been in a car accident: sadly no .
22. Been in a fist fight: You could say that
Firsts :
23. First piercing: you dumb or dumb ? i say already right i dont have
24. First best friend: Shawn Ho Wee Kiat
25. First award: Bursary Award for top 10% in Primary One
26. First Crush: not to willing to say that . my blog has readers who might just be the person
27. First Vacation: Genting Highlands
Lasts ;
28. Last person you talked to: Natasha
29. Last person you texted to: Natasha =.=
30. Last person(s) you watched a movie with: Mir , Syafiq & Azri
32. Last food you ate: Mentos
33. Last movie you watched: X-Men Origins
34. Last song you listened to: Hotel California . fine ah i didnt listen to it , i played it . but it still counts
35. Last thing you bought: Oreo Mcflurry
36. Last person you hugged: Yang Wei O.o
Favourites ;
37. Food: anything my grandmother cooks . im a nenek's boy
38. Drinks: Bandung
39. Clothing: Levi's
40. Books: G.C.E 'O' Level : Combined Science ( Physics, Chemsitry )
41. Song: Gerimis Mengundang - Slam
42. Flower: Lilacs
43. Colors: Red
44. Movies: Pursuit Of Happiness
45. Phrase: " wah cheebye ah "
46. Subjects: your mother lah i dont understand you
You ever done before ;
47. Kissed in the snow: kiss the snow in the snow ?
48. Celebrated Halloween: never
49. Had your heart broken: heart where can break ? if can break i die already !
50. Went over the minutes on your cell phone: my student plan very sexy offer
51. Someone questioned your sexual orientation: who the heck would want to do that ?
52. Came out of the closest: YES
53. Gotten pregnant: 2 times
54. Had an abortion: 4 times
55. Done something you've regretted: regretted starting this quiz
56. Broke a promise: humans make mistakes
57. Hid a secret: uhuh uhuh
58. Pretended to be happy: everyday im happy . no need to pretend
59. Met someone who changed your life: not yet
60. Pretended to be sick: yes . im a good actor
61. Left the country: no . the country leave me
62. Tried something you normally wouldn't try & liked it: basketball
63. Cried over the silliest thing: I cried because was watching this movie called " The Lakehouse " . and ignore i said that .
64. Ran a mile: i ran around your mother's waist . . so that should at least be 2 miles
65. Went to the beach with your best friend(s): went to the beach with girlfriend counted ? if counted then yes .
66. Stay single the whole year: yeap
Currently ;
67. Eating: drugs
68. Drinking: heineken
69. I'm about ton: not really
70. Listening to: the noisy fan
71. Plans for tomorrow: WORK WORK WORK FOR MONEY MONEY MONEY
72. Waiting for: my mom to sleep
73. Want kids: yeah 2 boys 1 girl
74. Want to get married: only to a woman who can cook good food for me . sheesh . so hard to find nowadays
75. Careers in mind: entreprenuer
76. Which is better than Girl/Boy: BOY
76. Lips or eyes: eyes
77. Shorter or taller: Shorter than me . i feel inferior to taller people
78. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic
79. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms . yeah its all bout the canons
80. Sensitive or loud: sensitive with a touch of understanding
81. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
82. Trouble-maker or hesistant: Trouble-maker
Have you ever ;
83. Lost glasses/contacts: Perfect Vision
84. Ran away from home: somehow . . .
85. Hold a gun or knife for self defense: kill those pesky little johnnies
86 . Killed somebody: KILLED JOHNNIE !!!
87 . Broken someone's heart: didn't mean to
88 . Been arrested: police never screen me before . i look to innocent
89. Cried when someone died: which bastard wont cry ?
Do you believe in ;
90. Yourself: somehow .
91. Miracles: im hoping for a miracle to save me from this quis
92. Love at first sight: No.
93. Heaven: yyeap
94. Santa Claus: yah . my father is santa claus
95. Sex on the first date: what ? no . .
96. Kiss on the first date: just one will do
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: maybe . Natasha would know who
98. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life: yeah im content
100. Is this Quis Gay : oh wow i didnt realise that . wow
Now tag 10 people to do this:
1] Natasha
2] Nadhrah
3] Zahid
4] Shazrin
5] Afiq
6] Dzul
7] Jo
what lah . . .
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05 June 2009
its about who you are
and who you make yourself to be .
when your eyes roll open ,
and the morning light flashes into your life ,
what do you see ?
do you see a new day beginning ?
or do you see endless misfortunes ?
if you're gonna wake up to a life of misfortunes ,
then thats what its really going to become .
its all a matter of what you want yourself to be .
even in the lowest point of your lives ,
dont let anything be in the way of you and your happiness .
dont let anyone or anything tell you that you can't do it .
trust yourself its gonna get better
tell yourself its okay .
and im sure it will .
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