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30 May 2009

here's a second recording , and yeah it sounds louder . so dont complain

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29 May 2009

truth be told i miss you

truth be told im lying

I WILL NOT BE BLOGGING UNTIL TUESDAY

I WILL PROMISE

AND I WILL TRY TO KEEP THAT PROMISE

JUST FOR NOW

UNTIL MY O LEVEL MALAY PAPER IS OVER

OKAY .

AND HERE'S A QUESTION FOR YOU :
IF YOU ONLY HAVE ONE EYE ,
DO YOU BLINK OF YOU WINK ?

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27 May 2009

Today officially marks the end of my journey in the National Cadet Corps .

And i'm very glad that i have contributed .

To be in the premier uniformed group in Singapore is something i am very proud of .

And i'm not the least afraid to say it out .

The National Cadet Corps have given me so much opportunies to excel and stand out .

To nurture me and bring out the best potentials i have .

and i sincerely thank you for that .

What makes it more meaningful is the people around me whom i share it with .

My batch of Specialists . You guys were the best platoon mates anybody could ever ask for . and i dont know how to thank you .

Nizar

Kai Yi

Yong Hao

Mir

Yik Zhen

Benjamin

Zhi Hong

Azri

Syafiq

Hamizan

Mubarak

Muhaimin

Asha'Ari

Dzul

Khairul Anwar

Zainul

Abdul Rahman

Najib

CLIFTON LEE BINGHUI

You guys have made this part of my life meaningful & memorable .

i wouldn't have asked for it in any other way .

From the time we were all strangers to each other in Part A

and we soon bonded, much and much closer .

And now as we pass out , we pass out together .

with a bond so strong its hard letting go .

We will all definitely see each other again .

Friendship so close wont be broken like that .

March Camp next year , we will see each other ,

and reminisce on all our memories .

Not forgetting , the one person who has made all of these possible

Captain Eric Koh Kai Hwee .

Although you are abit weird ,

you are the best Commanding Officer for our unit .

We couldn't have done it without you .

To my cadets , Part A 2009

You guys are my pride and glory .

You guys represent what i have done as your Platoon Commander .

And i see that most of you enjoy coming for training .

thats all i want to see .

My cadets enjoying NCC .

No matter how hard times may be , never give up cadets .

You guys will definitely endure hardship and pain .

but i can assure you , it will all pay off .

Its going to be worth it Part A .

Mark my words , Never ever give up .

Here's a post for this one fella who has been a great friend .

Dearest Clifton Lee BingHui ,

We have known each other for 4 years now .
i know 4 years may be short .
but its still 4 years .
And we couldn't have known each other if it weren't for Ncc .
must really thank Ncc .

Clifton ,
although you may be SUPER annoying ,
irritating
rude
discriminate people's colour one . .

still , you are my friend .
not only my friend , but my APC
and honestly you have been the BEST APC anyone could ask for .
you're very helpful really .
and your paikia attitude just adds flavour one .
but still , a very good APC
And Clifton if it weren't for you ,
i'd die handling the part alone .
Couldn't have done it without you .

And yes we've had alot of memories together one .
From the trip to endau rompin .
Where you become like my bestfriend there .
everywhere all go together .
everything also do together .
sounds gay but so what .
we're friends right ?
Oh and yes i remember how FUNNY you were learning malay and applying it .
until now .
and how you swat flies and put it in the SOCIABLE boy's hair .
And you breaking fast with us .
and waking up like 5AM IN THE MORNING to join us eat cos we were fasting that time .
And how i was stuck beside you throughout the whole bus ride .
sit beside you share mp3 .
really lah Clifton , you gerek man .

Oh March Camp was also a very fun time .
Remember how we'd go bunk to bunk just to disturb the cadets ?
Draw on their faces and all .
Yeah we're jokers aren't we .

Yeah Clifton its really great to have a friend and an APC like you .
seriously .
Oh and i still remember how you'd say to me
" eh good morning PC "
every morning .
it puts a smile on my face .
yeah .

Thanks Clifton for being a really great buddy .
i appreciate it all .

Dont worry .

if you tak tau melayu ,

i will teach you melayu .

- Staff Sergeant Khairul

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23 May 2009

Suzie now has a cousin , Sam !
see the resemblance ?

Anwar : i got my wife and 3 children to feed ;
Min : huh ? i have children ?

abang abang merepek

He's cool okay . his name is Larry . and he represented Singapore in the Youth Paralympics

very cute hor

Kay so the past 2 days , i've been down with a cold . and i keep sneezing that now the screen has like . you know . stuff on it . yeah .
okay so my blog hasnt had pictures in a long time , cos im lazy to upload . can't help it , its in the genes .

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Tiada terlintas di hati kecilku
Melukakan perasaanmu
Suratan takdir yang menentukan
Kenyataan yang sebenar
Tak bisa untuk aku menduga ke hari esoknya

Andainya bisa ku undur kembali
Tak ingin kumengulanginya
Saratnya luka rasa pilu
Kutanggung sepanjang waktu
Keluhan yang telah bertamu
Terpaksa kutempuh

Bukannya aku tak sayang
Bukannya aku tak cinta
Hatiku tak pernah berubah
Walaupun jiwa kugundah

Cuma kupinta padamu
Hentikanlah tangisanmu
Berikan aku kesempatan
Menyulam kembali kasihmu bagai dulu

Kumengerti apa yang kau rasa
Pedihnya luka diguris sembilu
Namun apa dayaku ini
Tidak termampu ku berduka
Ku harap mendung kan berarak gerimisnya tiada
Ku harap kasih kan kembali bahagia

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21 May 2009

Dear Miss Liana Arina Bte Samsari ,

you have been a really nice friend recently .
actually you've been a really nice friend ever since the first time we met at camp feast 2 years ago .
still quite hard to believe right we met at campfeast .
and out of so many people ,
awak lah yang jadi kawan baik aku ni .

still remember campfeast ?
we were discussing bout the performance night .
and you and i were standing up talking to the group
then suddenly my elbow go on top your shoulder
for like quite a long time
and neither you or i realised
then the group members realised
and stare at us .
and then you realise , and stare at me
then i realise , then i kancheong spider .

yeah funny times .
oh and i really miss our guitar sessions we had at the community centre .
although it was sungguh panas ,
it was still very much enjoyable .
oh and miss liana ,
my guitar is still with you leh .
long time i never see that guitar .
i dont even remember what it looks like .
but its okay , i have suzie .

thanks for being such a great friend .
heh heh heh heh heh
you dendeng

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19 May 2009

I'm TNT !
I'm DYNAMITE !

TnT baybay TnT .
Yeah dont play with fire ,
cos you'll get burrrned .

ISSUE NO.8 :
ROCK AND ROLL

If you dont love rock and roll ,
then your daddy didn't raise you well .
Rock and roll songs does nearly anything to your soul .
When you're angry it can cool you down .
when you're sad it can cheer you up
when you're happy it can make you even more happier .

Rock songs , just makes your heart go wild .
and scream your lungs out .
for example , my blogsong just makes you go WIIILD BABY !
even if you're sad and all , this song SOMEHOW motivates you .
and if you're sad and wanna kill yourself ,
then go listen to Hotel California by Eagles
song bout suicide .
kay nvm .
As for me , im a fan of not the Eagles , Ac/Dc , Led Zepplin or any other hard rock bands ,
im a fan of the SCORPIONS .
my uncle introduced me to them .
everytime i go his house , later he'll either be listening to it on the stereo ,
or rocking out on his guitar .
oh and yes i was influenced to play the guitar like him .
but that doesnt mean i dont listen to other bands ,
i do , but my handphone has more of Scorpions songs .

back to my issue .
i dont see why the auntie's and uncle's all complain complain when people wanna have some rock and roll .
i mean , we're the future of your nation .
dont stop us from doing what we love .
i was jamming the past 2 days , because i bought an additional 3 electric pedals .
tremolo , vibe and transparent overdrive .
and yeah baby the sound makes my balls tremble and my ears sting .
and happy happy rocking out .
some auntie come knock knock on the door
" hello excuse me ? why your house so noisy ah ? can keep quiet or not ? "
and this was my wonderful reply
" aiya auntie just close your door or go market lah "

i know lah its rude .
but rock and roll is rude .
so there's nothing you idiots can do bout it .
and my mom doesnt mind me making all the noise .
heh heh heh heh heh

you can't stop rock and roll .

So long SUCKAAAAS
I'M TNT

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17 May 2009

Kay as i said in the previous post ,

i spent one whole day at the masjid .

and its no ordinary masjid

its a cool masjid .

yeah i said it , cool .

Its a new masjid located in sengkang .

Masjid Al-Mawaddah .

which means : Masjid Kasih Sayang .

Cool hor . .

Kay so last friday was its opening .

and i swear , its a cool place .

although the prayer hall is rather small and doesnt seem capable of holding thousands of people ,

its still cool .

So i was walking around , and walking and walking .

and there were lots of interesting things .

for instance , there's a youth room ,

where teens can just enter to surf the net or play that table soccer thingy .

and cushions and all .

and there's one room where its like a museum .

well not really a museum ,

its just like a history room . where there are lots of articles bout Islamic History .

For instance did you know Mekkah was once flooded .

yeah flooded .

the middle east

flooded . wow .

and there was also this poster(i think) with 99 nama Rasul .

and it turns out my cousin's name was there

Muzammil .

which means selimut nabi .

but they translated it into "wrapped"

and i translated it into "bungkus"

yeah so my cousin's future will definitely bungkus .

oh and there's a playground ,

and at the basement there's this stall that sells amazing kebab .

mmmmmmmmm . .

damn i love the kebab .

but eating too much , will give you KEBABATS
but its cool its cool .

and every level i go to , i take the lift .

yeah wow the masjid has a lift .

and the COOLEST part is ,

there's a rooftop which was accessible .

and you know me

i access into accessible areas .

and i climb onto the roof ,

at like 8pm at night .

and the whole view of sengkang/punggol was marvellous .

amazing i swear .

nice cool air .

really helped to relax with the current situation im in .

but yeah everything's past me now .

im fine .

managed to solat 5 waktu .

tenang sikit hati khairul ni .

you know , im gonna stick to Bob Marley's wise words .

1 : Every little thing is gonna be alright

2 : No woman no cry

yeah Bob Marley you rock don't you .

back to the masjid topic .

i'd really love to go back there and spend some more quality time .

oh and the toilet rocks i swear .

here are some pictures

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16 May 2009

Dear Khairul ,

I have to praise you for who you are .
you never let things pull you down for long .
you indeed are a strong person .
Always positive and forward looking .

Whats happened has happened and you cant turn back time .
remember , what does not kill you , makes you stronger .
live up to your words .
relationships come and go .
and they just make you a better person .
learn from your mistakes ,
and apply it to your next upcoming challenges .

you spent a whole day at the mosque today .
and your soul searching did you good .
and be thankful you have friends who care about you
who never want to see you sad .
and may God look over those who have cared bout you and cheered you up .
everything is alright now .
you managed to resolve your problems .
and shove them off your shoulders .

khairul ,
no matter what happens ,
you'll always have your friends around you who care
who'll lift you up when your down .
and you dont want to disappoint them do you ?

And you'll still have me .
I'll always be there for you .
despite anything that happens ,
i'll still love you .

-Suzie

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Im sorry that things had to go this way between us
but there's nothing i can do .
life wants it that way .
i just hope that its for the best and that you'll be happy .

but still the memories will remain .
for all the times i've been there for you
to cheer you up in your lowest point
to lift up your spirits when things pull you way down
i've tried to help.
even though it may not be the best ,
i've still tried .
and i know my efforts were alot .

when you wanted that carebear , i bought you one to see you smile
when you had problems with your parents and they smashed your phone ,
i lent you my spare one .
when you came back tired from ncdcc with your uniform ,
i helped carry it for you
when you were late to reach home , i sent you by cab .
when you had problems with nurin and fadhly ,
i stood by you even though i was the one who was hurt .
i stood by you to support you knowing you needed it .
i was there for you when you needed me most .
i've always been there .
When you had a fight with Fahmi , i stood up for you ,
cos i didnt wanna see you cry .
When you were frustrated with everything around you ,
i took time off to go to Century Square
and bought you that big teddy bear ,
and surprised you with it down your block .
yeah i did all that just to see you smile .
i was willing to go to that extent .

But for one point in my life ,
when everything was falling on me
when i was down and out .
where were you ?
i tried to share my problems with you
but somehow you got angry with me .
For once , just once ,
you couldn't be there for me .
the only one who was there and worried bout me was Natasha .
yeah she's a really great friend .
but honestly , you're not at fault .
i know you have problems of your own too .
but is it so hard to just tolerate it and try to just listen to my rants for once ?
but whats over is over .
there's no point in me stressing out bout it .

whaever time i've had with you was really wonderful
and i appreciate it .
i thank you for being someone whom i could love and cherish .
and only words can describe how grateful i feel to have had you
you were great .
but good things have to come to an end .
goodbye is still a goodbye .
but friends are still friends .
yeah ?

we all gotta learn to move on .
no point remaining sad .
we're just missing out on life .
so lets move on and be happy .
and live life with a smile .

Every little thing is gonna be alright .
i know it will .

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15 May 2009

Problems slam into me day after day .
minute after minute .
And i just dont know how to handle all of these .
from family to friends .

But my best buddies ,
thanks for always making me smile
even though you guys talk crap
play soccer in the rain
fall and hurt ourselves .
it makes me laugh and have fun .
Brothers Forever yeah ?

but still , it only cheers me up for that one moment .
i'll still have to face the fact that i have all these burdens pulling me down .
and when people have problems , they turn to their loved ones .
but even your loved ones instead get pissed with you .
who are you supposed to turn to now ?

who are you supposed to turn to for love
understanding
care
and concern .
Family ? nope , they're the ones who's angry with you .
best friends ? maybe .
but words can only do that much .

its times like this i wish to be dead .
want me to die isn't it ?
don't even care bout me yeah ?
dont worry .
nobody will miss me .
i don't mean anthing to people's lives .
im just another person .
just go ahead and be happy with your own lives people .

dont worry it aint nobody's fault .
its all mine .
its my fault i came into this world
its my fault i came into your lives .
its my fault bout everything .
im sorry .
just leave me to be .

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13 May 2009

MY BRAIN IS SATURATED FROM 2.5 HOURS OF MATHEMATICS .
AND GOD PLEASE LET ME PASS MY MATHS . I STUDIED FOR GOD'S SAKE .

NOT IN THE MOOD TO BLOG REALLY .
EXAM PERIODS NOTHING MUCH TO BLOG ABOUT .

but actually come to think of it got lah things to blog about .
for instance , people after exam go home to study .
people like me , after the chemistry paper , go play soccer with nizar , azri , syafiq , muhaimin , afiq and the Dawgs .
very good ah very good .

then today also . supposed to spend more time studying .
but instead , zabir , syafiq , azri and nizar came over to my house to lepak . very fun horh .
jam on the guitar and you know lah benda benda lepak .

but . .
i still got study kay .
Khairul Good Boy .

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10 May 2009

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please dont break it
Love was made for me and you

Ps: I love you and you know it

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09 May 2009

everyday i wake up and the first thing that comes to mind is ,
" is today going to be different ? is today gonna be good "
even if im dealing with problems of my own .
i force myself to think positively .
and force a smile .
even though im breaking down inside .
there's just so much going on right now .
but i choose not to share my burden with the loved ones around me .
because i know one way or another , its going to affect them too .
and i dont want that .

I'd rather suffer in silence so as to see the people around me happy .
but of course , sometimes i just have to let it all out .
why is so much happening to me .
maybe people see me happy all the time .
its because i dont want to express how i really feel .
but every single moment im hurting inside .
i just dont know what to do right now .
im just puzzled why all of this has to happen to me .

Nevermind ,
nobody can help me right now

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06 May 2009

ISSUE NO.7
Educators

also known as teachers .
I got a name for you people
hypocrytes .
No offence to nice teachers out there .
mrTAN for example ,
but others ; big bunch of liars .

You people should already know by now .
how hectic secondary school can be .
especially at my level .
and you persistently give homework.
you think its cool ?
you think it helps ?
it just pisses us off .
and in the first place , we dont even go to work .
so dont give us "homework"
name it home assignments or something .
or even better dont give at all .
wanna give us homework ?
might as well dont go to school .
study from home .

back to the controversy bout educators beign hypocrytes .
you teachers ( Madam Alimah Binte Lob in particular )
Act as if you're one hell of a bigshot .
who gives a bloody damn if you've got a phd or whatever .
nobody cares .
nobody likes you .
and stop the whole insulting us indirectly thing .
you're just making more people hate you .
there's absolutely no use if you act good infront of the principal or school commitee ,
if you're actually such a dread in the classroom .
then with your actions towards us ,
you still want to act as if you're a good person .
and she's not the only one .
there's a big bunch of them .
keeping grudges from your secondary school life ,
and venting it on our secondary school life .
stop it .
just stop it .

Take Mr Lourdesamy for example .
He understands the students .
and complies to them .
make them feel comfortable and enjoyable .
not only the students love him ,
they understand his teaching .
and at least his voice isn't monotonous that it bores your ears off .

Why cant all teachers be more understanding .
doesn't it feel good when students love you ?
it pays to be a cool teacher .

end of post .

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01 May 2009

Dear Khairul ,

Now is a critical time in your life .
The turning point .
Make full use of the opportunity given and don't miss it .
This will only come once in your life .
Your O levels are coming .
It's going to determine where you strike out in life Khairul .
Don't waste it .
What you need right now is a reality shock .
Get a grip Khairul .
Focus on whats ahead in your life .
Its just another 5 more months of pure focus and concentration .
Soon after , you have a long holiday ahead of you .
Aim for it .
That 6 months of holiday .
Come on you can make it .

You wanna make your Mom proud don't you ?
You wanna take over her business right ?
Which she put all her heart and soul into it .
To give you this life that you have .
And you don't wanna let her down .
And you wanna aim for Culinary and Catering Management don't you ?
Well all the best Khairul .

You can do it .
I'm sure you can

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