Kampung Daun Pandan

2011-04-03T13:00:00.000+08:00

the cat must be Bruno Mars. yep

2011-04-03T12:54:00.001+08:00

looks legit to me. nyeh.

2011-04-03T12:52:00.001+08:00

omg sheldon :O

2011-04-03T12:51:00.002+08:00

so true

2011-04-03T12:51:00.001+08:00

suck a deeekkk???!!

2011-04-03T12:39:00.001+08:00

brilliant. nuffsaid

2011-04-03T12:26:00.001+08:00

wow.

2011-04-03T12:14:00.001+08:00

i want a pie. Apple Pie to be precise

2011-04-03T12:12:00.003+08:00

KALM YO TITS NIGGA!

2011-04-03T12:07:00.002+08:00

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
OHMYGAWD

2011-04-03T12:07:00.001+08:00

siruis-ly?

2011-04-03T12:05:00.001+08:00

hehe i always had this image in my head though.
but how come that pacemaker shit or whatever in his chest isn't round?
hmmmm questions of life

2011-04-03T12:02:00.002+08:00

I want a baby like this :(
SYASYAAAAAAAA !
Make me cute baby :@

2011-04-03T12:00:00.001+08:00

I swear i'm not gay, but i really have to say.
This dude is handsome or what?
Look at that jawline O.O

2011-04-03T11:57:00.000+08:00

Mr.Hairstylist, Give me the Bieber

2011-04-03T11:55:00.001+08:00

God i love his character

2011-04-03T02:02:00.002+08:00

Over the past couple of months.
I've made alot of thinking. Mostly self reflection i would say.
And it made me realize a few things about life.
It's hard for people to admit their own mistake, even for me.
It's always easier to push the blame onto others.
It's very easy to get blind-sighted by ego.
I know i wrote in my previous entry, that i wasn't going to point out your mistakes.
But i feel i have to, to help me move on.

Firstly, it was my mistake for posting up that racist update on facebook.
When Mubarak got angry with it, i still wasn't angry.
Because to me, i had the choice of saying what i want.
I don't fancy the idea of being restricted due to taboo.
Heck what other people think of me regarding that post.
It is my own profile.
So when mubarak started to get more and more vulgar commenting on that facebook update, it got me more and more agitated. I was only angry with him.
The argument was only between me and him.
So it came to a point where Azri appeared out of nowhere, when it clearly had nothing to do with him. With a comment saying "he's just not as mature as we thought he was"
I began to fire up only at that point.
And yes, i apologizing for blasting back at everyone there.
I was angry. I was angry because the argument between me and mubarak had nothing to do with any one of you, but you had to be a busybody and come in.
Whatever okay. And the whole thing just ended like that.
I was still angry, so i gave it a day.
Two days later, i texted all of you, even those who didn't have much to do with it.
because seriously i wasn't angry at syafiq at all. He only said "haiz". Or whatever he said.
I was actually angry with mubarak, syazwani and azri. |
But nevermind, i'll just apologize anyway.
it was early in the morning, and i really wanted to get it off my chest.
So i just grabbed my phone and texted everybody.
awhile later mubarak replied saying its okay, he forgives me.
awhile after that, syazwani texts me forgiving me too.
But none of my bestfriends could do that.
You said that you loved me more than a friend. I was even like a brother.
So you couldn't even reply his text message to forgive him?
Of course i got mad. But this time, i wasn't angry at you guys about the incident.
I was angry that you guys couldn't even reply a simple text message to forgive me.

Later in the night i posted on facebook saying something about you guys not wanting to forgive me, and that i'm not a beggar.
and you also said, if i were sincere about the apology, i wouldn't put up that post.
See, i was sincere about the apology. I apologized for blasting at you on facebook.
But i got angry that even my closest friends, those whom i would trust with my life, couldn't even reply to a single text message. Not a single one of you.
And we never spoke again did we?
The longer it was, the more pissed off i got.
In my mind, i was simply thinking " why are they so egoistic as to not forgive me for something like that? Why are they being so selfish".
The quieter is was, the more thoughts raced through my head.
Everyone i talked to even were surprised as to why you all won't reply the text and forgive me. After all, such a small matter.
Things escalated from there. Nobody told me about celebrating zabir's birthday. It lead me thinking that you guys were being utterly selfish.
I don't even know what happened then on. I just know things were stupid.
Forget it. Delete me off your lives all you want if it makes you feel better.
I'm just a file in the recycle bin waiting to be cleared.
As you guys would say "Dah hilang member"
i was losing myself, and you guys didn't pull me back in.
So, it was both our faults.

I believe everything happens for a reason.
I used to think that we would grow up together, till we're old.
And someday we would sit together at a coffeeshop talking all day till our wives get angry.
And Nizar's daughter would be a couple together with my son.
But things change. Maybe all of these happened just to show me that i was changing.
Maybe it happened to let me realize my mistake, and pull myself back together.
Well if thats the case, then it's a very good cause.
Because i realized the worst of what i can be.
And it made me promise to myself, never to fall back there again.

Nothing happens without a reason.
No mistake is unforgiven.
Whats done cannot be undone,
But whats done can be corrected.

It's your call. Delete me, or restore me.
If it were up to me, i'd click restore and reboot.

2011-04-03T01:54:00.000+08:00

sometimes doing this is all i want, every single morning of my life

2011-03-06T20:32:00.002+08:00

Good day everybody!
I feel so energized! I don't know why though.

I have been drinking alot of milk recently, but i don't see the relativity.
milk ≠ energy. milk = strong bones.

Anyway, i just wanna say something. Don't get too worked up.
I believe that i can rant on my blog if i wish to.
But i'm not here to rant.
Regarding what has been happening recently, I won't deny that it's my fault to begin with.
Neither will i deny that i only made it worse.
Alright alright, i apologize for it.
But i must say, it takes two hands to clap.
I realized that it was my fault, and yours too.
I admit my fault, and i apologize for it.
I don't wish to point out your faults, because i don't want another argument with you all denying it was your fault. If you think you weren't at fault at all, fine by me.
heh. Just go think about it. I don't wanna say.
Cakap sikit nanti merajuk lagi.

Enough of that. Damn, i'll really be busy these coming holidays!
Firstly there's march camp. And i'm in charge of the food.
THE FOODEHH. ALONE. IN CHARGE.
Well I wouldn't say im in charge alone, but it's my major responsibility.
Mr Koh wants the food to be catered by my mother, so yeah.
I'll be bussehhhh :S

Secondly, I have OLTC. AHHH! It's 4 or 5 days, i don't know.
But whatever, camps in poly are super fun anyway~
Oh oh oh! i must tell you something. I have this year 2 senior. Her name's Khadijah.
So she's year 2, and i'm year 1.
Funny story is, she was my NCC Master Sergeant when i was sec 1.
SEC 1 O.O
Freakkayy. I'll try to pester her to come to march camp as well uh.

THIRDLY, AND MOST EXCITINGLY,
i have 2 performances coming up~
It's some dinner and dance held at TP.
I really have no clue what it's about. All i know is that i gotta perform twice.
So i'm gonna be singing and playing the guitar together with Fakhruddin.
The first performance is on stage at the auditorium, and the second one's at some foyer.
I don't know. I'm just gonna go up there and perform my heart out.

kthnxbye.

2011-03-05T15:24:00.001+08:00

Tease me.
Please me.
You know i gotta go.

2011-01-12T23:46:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year Everyone!
Here's an update about myself:
-Recently,i just injured my toe and it bleed.It happened on 10 Jan 2011.My toe was being 'run over' by the ITAS door-.-
-Coincedentally,my girlfriend also got her O level results on the same day! I'm so proud of her! She got L1R4 10 points and R5 17 points:D
-My semester test results were all FANTASTIC maybe except for one cos i don't like the subject.Other subjects was GOOD!I was very happy upon getting the results! My hardwork paid off.Gona keep up the good results(:
-I deactivated my facebook account due to personal reasons.I've done what i was suppose to do.
-My gf lately has been busy with work.Sometimes i do feel lonely but once she call or text me,that's when all the feelings rose.I'm the flower and she's the gardener.I'm glad she knows what i was trying to say(:
I pray that everything will turned out well,things will improve and i don't wanna lose her.
I <3 you.
Loves,
yours.Hehe
*winks winks*

2011-01-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

" Wherever you will go " - The Calling (Cover)

2010-12-31T19:46:00.000+08:00

2010-12-12T21:30:00.004+08:00

I never meant to hurt you , or make you cry .
I only meant the best . But sometimes the best things in mind turns out to be the worst mistakes we'll ever make .
I love you , honestly with all my heart .
I would do anything for you . I would go against my own for you .
I would willingly go out of my way just to meet you , even if the consequences for me afterwards are undesirable . Many times i've left my friends at school just to be with you . Many times i chose not to meet my guys just to meet you . Uncountable times i've been scolded for coming home late cause' i sent you home , precisely because that extra 20 minutes i spend with you would still mean the world to me . I would really go out of my way for you . But for once , I wanted you to come here to meet me . For once i didn't wanna go out so far just to see you . And im sure you know for what reasons i don't wish to go out far . And that one time i just wanted you to come , instead of me going , you wouldn't do so . Why ? Is it because you're afraid of coming home half an hour late ? Is it because you don't want a long bus ride home ? Or is it because you rather have a boyfriend with a heartache than an earful of scolding ?
Is it too much to ask ? Is it ?
But please don't apologize . I'm fine , I'll deal with it . The same way i've always dealt with it .
Im sorry if I hurt your emotions by blogging this , but it is my blog.
And it's a place for me to express my emotions .
Writing always makes me feel better .
I'm not angry nor disappointed with you . Not anymore . I'm okay now . I just needed to vent all the emotions . I still love you with all my heart .
I hope you understand .

With love , Khairul ♥

2010-11-27T20:32:00.002+08:00

I sincerely apologise to you,Muhammad Khairul Bin Nordin.
I hope you'll forgive me for making you feel that way.

Yours sincerely,
Syasya <3

2010-11-19T01:35:00.001+08:00

This is the cat that i've been talking about.I love him! He's so cute and manja-ish.But i love you much much more <3

Goodmorning my dear(:
Its friday! Its the last day of school for this week! Get through this day okay?

You're a talented man.
You know how to play musical instrument and also sing! Actually,i can play one musical instrument....MUSICAL CHAIRS! Hahaha! Lame right?I know what's your reaction,"Sayang!" or either this --> =.=
I applaud you for your good job with the chasing cars song.I love it eventhough it may not be perfect.Choose a perfect song that fits your range and transfer all the energy you have in singing and playing the guitar.With more practice,i'm sure you'll do well! You got my support honey:D I'm your number one fan!

I hope with this i've put a smile on your face(: Smile!
Syasya loves you*winks*

2010-11-18T09:04:00.001+08:00

hey guys , do watch and comment . enjoy ! oh lower the volume please :D

2010-11-07T12:04:00.002+08:00

Hi hubby <3
Look who is here!Haha.
I'm syasya firzanah bte roslee,your wifey(:
Err...It feels like as if i hacked into your account.
Kay kay i want to tell you some important details......

Muhammad Khairul Bin Nordin has been the most awesomest and wonderfulmest bf.
-He is hardworking
-He is determined
-He is understanding
-He is so cool especially when he wear his shades:P
-he is so cute like me!
-he is so hugable and kissable
-he love my magical kisses(P.s my potion did work!)
-He is smart
-he is not professional(He will find the lamest way to win over me)
-He is tall.
-He has a good smile
-he is good looking(especially when you went overseas)
-He caring
-he respect me
-he is inspiring
-he is supportive
-he has a scandal.Don't worry it is his guitar.You dare have another person????!! :D
-he is funny
-he is lame as his gf
-he is trustworthy
-he is honest
-he is sincere
-he is full of surprises
-he is someone i love so much!
-he is loyal
-he is straighforward
-he is stubborn.Wahahaha!
i think there is more of this.
Bi,you know how much i care and love you.You mean so much to me.I know there may be obstacles we have to go thru.But we've promised each other we will go thru it together and being there for each other(: You're my pillar of strength.I'll will always be at your service! Gosh! I miss you so much.

I cant wait to text you after you finsih work.Remember having ample rest is vital! kaylah,time to studyyyyy.
I love Muhammad Khairul Bin Nordin <3
My one and only.Let's pray for the best.Toodles~
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

2010-10-28T20:59:00.003+08:00

Have you ever had those days where you feel like crap ,
but when you think about it again , its just crappy cause your friends aren't talking to you .
I despise those days , cause its stupid how friends can affect you .
they either make you , or break you .
honestly right now im very dependent on my friends .
I need them for company , help and everything else we find friends for .

But friends only go so far . Im not saying im planning to ditch all my friends .
See when we're all in our late 20's already , we'll all be married , and working and with children .
I mean after a long day's work , you'd want to come home to your lovely wife for some home cooked food and some family time with your children .
time for friends will be very limited .
You won't have time for them , neither will they .
Im sure you get my point .

Back to my whole agenda ,

I hate how friends change . You might know them for years , and think thats all there is to him .
And boom ! He changes . And his change is definitely affecting you .
You know you should tell him , but you just can't .
Cause you dont wanna hurt him .
cause you're just too close to him .

i dont feel like blogging anymore . bye .

2010-10-04T16:57:00.000+08:00

If you're reading this Syasya , I love you .
I'll be right back okay ?

2010-09-28T22:06:00.004+08:00

Dearest Syasya ,
I guess its true when they say that time flies when you're having fun .
Its been 4 months already . Really quick isn't it ?
These past 4 months has been really great Syasya .
They were full of love , joy and not to mention , surprises .
LOTS of surprises :)
I really enjoy every minute we've spent together . Every single one of them .
You never fail to make me laugh like an idiot , smile like a geek and act like a fool .
Yes im a fool , a fool for you .
You were there to lift my spirits back up whenever im sad .
You were there to give me strength when i was weak .
You were there to motivate me when i was feeling lousy

You were there for me through it all Syasya , and i really have to thank you for that .
I sincerely appreciate all the effort you have made for me .
And i promise you that i will shower you with all the love and care , like nothing you've ever felt .
I promise to always love you , for as long as you love me .
Believe me okay baby ?
I hope there will be many more moments of magic for the two of us .
Well , i know there will be :)

I love you Syasya Firzanah Binte Roslee <3>

2010-09-28T22:06:00.002+08:00

2010-09-24T20:13:00.001+08:00

you dont know how much i miss you right now

2010-09-24T19:42:00.001+08:00

I wanna know
Who ever told you I was letting go
Of the only joy that I have ever known
Girl, they were lying

Just look around
And all of the people that we used to know
Have just given up, they wanna let it go
But we're still trying

Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad

Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again

Some people say
That everything has got its place in time
Even the day must give way to the night
But I'm not buying
Cos in your eyes
I see a love that burns eternally
And if you see how beautiful you are to me
You'll know I'm not lying

Sure there'll be times we wanna say goodbye
But even if we try
There are some things in this life won't be denied
Won't be denied

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again

2010-09-15T13:52:00.003+08:00

There are alot of great things i could say about my girlfriend . too much to list down . Im sure you guys wouldn't want to read all of them anyway . But what i love the most about my girlfriend is , I see a future of hope together with her .
And everything else will come into place following that .
I love her .

2010-09-13T20:43:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Khairul

2010-09-06T05:51:00.002+08:00

Ever since i woke up this morning , i can't stop thinking about you . Thinking about how amazing you are as a person , and how much more wonderful you are as a girlfriend .
I can't stop smiling . :)
Today is gonna be a lovely day .
Perfect day for an exam :)
Thanks Syasya , for starting my day of well .
I ♥ you

2010-09-05T19:36:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna fucking kill this chinese hungry ghost getai performance . FUCK YOU AND YOUR FUCKING ANNOYING SONGS . THE GHOSTS HEAR YOUR ANNOYING PERFORMANCE THEY WONT EVEN BE HUNGRY ANYMORE . THEY'D JUST DIE . AGAIN . SO SHUT THE FUCK UP . PLEASE

2010-09-02T00:15:00.001+08:00

GERMANY HERE I COME

2010-08-29T23:37:00.002+08:00

Dearest Syasya Firzanah , Happy 3rd month together ♥
These 3 months has been so special , cause i have you by my side .
I can't say how much you mean to me , but i hope you feel it from me .
Its the way you care for me , love me , respect me , understand me , and embrace me that makes me feel so grateful to have you as my girlfriend .
The memories we've had so far has been so special Syasya ,
and i hope there will be much more to come .
I love you Syasya Firzanah ♥
xoxo

2010-08-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

cukur ketiak aku lah maths .

biadap betol .

mampos tak nak .

2010-08-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

I might be going to germany . OMGWTFZCZVDGW
oh , and france ~
managed to selit selit into an engineering school's study trip .
:0
who said applied science students can't go to engineering student's study trips .

pish posh .
LOUIS VUITTON HERE I COME

2010-08-26T10:40:00.000+08:00

im gonna wanna cut cut oh cut cut my hair.

but i do not know why .

2010-08-24T23:51:00.002+08:00

WOOOOOOOO
finally im updating after a gazillion years .
But im sure you guys have been busy too . Exams and all ayye ?
12 days to sem exams . dang .
Im screwed for maths . Im like blank at everything .
okay that was a lie . Im blank at most of them .
why are there fuckin' ants on my table . FUCK OFF .
Anyway , everything has been really great lately .
Syasya♥ has been more than awesome .
love her truckloads !
Thanks alot Syasya by the way for the other night .
You really stole my heart .
I can't express my gratitude and appreciation towards you .
The dudes have been awesome also ,
everything has been going smoothly .
Nizar's birthday was quite recent too . Funny story behind that . We bought him the same pair of shoes his Aunt bought for him . Big stupid coincidence =.=

But we got an exchange for the shoes anyway .
and if you guys didn't know , i got a new iPhone :D
WOOOOOOOOOO
Accessibility has increased like 10 fold with this phone omg .
everything's just a click away .
i just realized this blog post has no paragraphs .

nah .
happy ? Oh yeah , Shahida's birthday was quite recent too .
Had a blast ( let me reiterate ) , BLAST , at Sakura with Syaf , Iza , Amigo and shahirah .
love you girls lah ! oh and Ahmad Naufal also lah .
( who came super late by the way . )
okay im starting to enjoy the fun of blogging again .
should do this more often .

I like pencils . Mechanical ones . They're nice to use . They make my handwriting look really nice . I like nice handwriting . Zainul has the ugliest handwriting in the world anyway . English alphabets look like arabic characters . wtf .

aah .
Goodnight people .
I wanna study .
bye .
now kiss my ass .
*muah*

2010-07-22T21:16:00.004+08:00

I know i haven't blogged for a PRETTY LONG TIME .

well i've been rather busy lately .

shall not say what , but im sure everyone can infer .

But the reason for this post is something special .

It's for my darling . It's her birthday today !

Happy 17th birthday Syasya Firzanah ,
today is such a special day for you , so do enjoy it as much as possible ;)

I dont know if by the time you read this , you've received my surprise .

well i hope you have ,
and my surprise would pretty much explain why the birthday wish here is kinda short .
gotta save all the sweet messages for the real thing *winks*
hahaaaaaa !
But enjoy your birthday baby , I hope this is going to be a special one for you .
I wish you all the best sayang , in everything you do .
And i know , you'll be the best .
I believe in you Syasya
Happy Birthday !

p.s : I hope the radio dedication was a good enough surprise for you*winks* . don't worry , there's more to come

2010-07-01T23:44:00.001+08:00

I wanna make you smile
Whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All i wanna do, is grow old with you

I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
So, it could be so nice growing old with you,....

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man that grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you.

I miss you Syasya Firzanah♥
xoxo

2010-07-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

Lying close to you

Feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together

And I just wanna stay with you

In this moment forever, forever and ever

I miss you Syasya Firzanah♥
xoxo

2010-06-27T01:33:00.001+08:00

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !
DAMN !
EVERYONE KNOWS ABOUT IT !

ps : ignore the babylove thing . it's an inside joke

2010-06-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

I regard you as a friend , and as a friend , i look out for you .
I do what i can to help you . I want the best for you .
But if you think im just naggy and bossy , well thats up to you .
I wanted to help you improve yourself , but wow you had to push me aside .
Hey im not desperate about it okay .
You can choose to do whatever you want , it IS your life .
Just don't screw it up and then come seek for help and advice .
If you repelled me once , hey i don't think i'd even want to be back .
If you don't regard me as a friend , then why should I ?
Im just looking out for you and gosh wow , Im the one who's in the wrong .

You know what , do whatever you want .
you want me as a friend , im here .
if you dont want me , then im gone and i doubt i'd wanna come back .
do whatever you want . Just dont disappoint me .
Im already disappointed enough

2010-06-19T22:54:00.003+08:00

Dear school , i love how you provide me with all the good friends i need for an awesome polytechnic experience .
But i hate the timetable that you have given me .
Honestly it's too tiring .
By the end of the week , i'm usually physically and mentally exhausted from all the long hours and all the subjects .
I hope you die a horrible death . thank you .

2010-06-14T22:31:00.001+08:00

saaaaaayang syasya ♥

2010-06-12T12:20:00.002+08:00

101 things to learn before you die

how to cook nasi lemak
how to rollerblade
make coffee
roll your own cigarette
how to fish
drive a car
how to drill a hole in the wall
how to make a joined wall socket
bargain
how to change a baby's diapers
how to swim
how to iron clothes
how to play the piano
learn how to play the guitar
how to create your own webpage
how to play card games
how to play soccer . trust me , some people just cant .
how to fly a kite . i've tried . failed .
maths .
how to lie to your employer just to skip work .

I shall stop here . Can't think of any other else .
Shall come back to this post when i think of stuff .
you guys can just write ideas in my tagboard . please and thank you . bye

2010-06-10T12:09:00.002+08:00

I want a new phone leh . My phone simply sucks . It lags too much . and it's so hard to type . I have big fingers . and the keypads are soo tiny . they would only suit syasya's tiny stubby fingers . but really i want a new phone . damn .

2010-06-09T14:14:00.002+08:00

Im really enjoying my holidays so far . entah leh . i feel like i have too much free time in the world . if you guys got any plans , do invite me . im kinda bored really . Well no lah not really . im just kidding :D
I have plans today . Go out meet syasya at kallang . then meet the guys for a movie later . haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
but what the hell am i gonna do tomorrow ?
If nobody's gonna ask me out tomorrow , then i guess im gonna do my csas homework lor . kay bye have fun

2010-06-07T21:52:00.002+08:00

sometimes we should just adopt the " fuck it " attitude towards everything in life that has problems with us . like why bother about it if it's just gonna affect you negatively . Yah right now im just gonna give this attitude to almost everything lah . just fuck it . i can't be bothered about alot of things now . I'll only care about things and people who deserve it .

2010-06-03T00:10:00.003+08:00

Im supposing this is syafeqah's " I WANT EPOK EPOK SAYUR " face .
epic .

and this must be her " EPOK EPOK SAYUR ? WHERE ?! " face .
(Y)

2010-06-02T23:29:00.002+08:00

I'm such an idiot .
Let's face it , i do lotsa stupid things in my life .
but that doesn't give anyone the right to belittle me .
Neither does it give anyone any right whatsoever to insult me , or make fun of me .
Just because i put up a happy face most of the time doesn't mean i won't suddenly flip out and explode at you .
Trust me , you wouldn't want to be the person who makes me tick .
I can be a very angry and serious person .
And yes , I can be very temperamental .
Goodnight

2010-06-01T18:58:00.001+08:00

Today is such a beautiful day .
Im loving today :)

2010-06-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

Like finally , this webpage looks fresh =.=

2010-05-31T23:55:00.001+08:00

Note to self :

Change blog layout . the dark colours are getting rather annoying
add more pictures . words only without pictures are getting rather annoying
post something that's pretty annoying
actually doing these things , instead of saying it only

2010-05-30T16:05:00.002+08:00

Life is a wonderful thing don't you guys think ?
Just think about it , there's just so much prospects to life .
There's love , laughter , sadness , anger and my personal favourite , nonsense .

Well if you look back at life , you're bound to think
" Damn , the opportunity was right there , why didn't i grasp it ? " or
" I should have done that instead " .
So yeah , everyone has some form of regrets in life and we all wish we could change it .

But we as humans , never learn from our mistakes . well , probably most of us .
I know I have my mistakes which i keep repeating over and over again .
And honestly I dont know why i still repeat them . It's just a habit .
But we should always improve ourselves , make our lives better .
If an opportunity comes knocking at your door , open it , embrace it .
If it turns out to be a mistake , accept it . Learn from it
If it turns out to be something life-changing , appreciate it .

The same thing applies for love , just take that chance .
Even if you have doubts , just go for it .
You may never know that the person you're looking at right now , will be the same person you look at when you're on your knees , asking for her to marry you .
She may just be the one .
So guys , if a girl comes knocking on your door , accept her , appreciate her , love her .
Don't let it slip off your hands , cause it may never come again .

And if you think you're life is in the dumps , where everything just isn't working well for you , be thankful that you still have your family and friends around you .
For a moment you may think that they don't care about your feelings .
Well you're wrong . The reason they're your friends is because they care for you and they love you .
Appreciate the friends who's always been there for you when you needed a laughter , when you needed a shoulder to cry on , when you needed someone to talk to or text to .
appreciate them ,
appreciate life :)

2010-05-28T08:53:00.000+08:00

woke up , went to the toilet , coughed , still there was blood .
but hey , it was much lesser than yesterday . just a few traces .
dont worry guys :)

2010-05-27T19:44:00.002+08:00

I could be suffering from Tuberculosis or lung infection . I've been coughing for a few days now and yesterday , when i spat out my phlegm , there was blood in it . Duh i got scared . So i went to the doctor today , and she wants me to go for an X-ray to confirm my diagnosis .
Apparently , tuberculosis can be caused by inhaling germs in the air , most commonly from people who are sick , and are coughing . well yeah i have realized there have been people in school who's been coughing and sneezing recently , due to the weather . But I don't know , all i can do now is pray for my safety . goodnight readers

2010-05-25T22:27:00.002+08:00

This pretty much sums up everything

2010-05-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

i got a B+ for my HAP quiz .
On the bright side , HAHAAAAA I PASSED HAP !
but on the other note , B+ sia . .
few more stinking marks to an A .
screw this . Im gonna get an A next time

2010-05-15T09:53:00.003+08:00

ORGANIC CHEM FTW !
anyway , im having hopes for Organic chem .
HOPES only . i still have no idea anyway . but still , hopes . *winks*
HAHAHAHAHA !
maths i'm okay lah . im just pissed off with the BIG FUCKING LONG QUESTION on log .
cekik darah betol .
And HAP omg . wth is that about . and Alvin Poh , you better teach me properly ah .
when i ask you a question , ANSWER ME !
DONT ASK ME BACK WITH ANOTHER QUESTION

kay kay , here's the scenario

Khairul : Mr.Poh , is cardiovascular system and Circulatory System same ?
Poh-kimak : why you dont know ?
Khairul : dont know leh
Poh-kimak : Go and find out lah . what does cardio mean ? what does vascular mean ?
Khairul : I DONT KNOW . I DIDN'T TAKE BIO
Poh-kimak : go find out lah .

OMG ASSHOLE ! I AM TRYING TO FIND OUT THE ANSWER FROM YOU ! THAT'S THE POINT OF YOU BEING A TEACHER ASSHOLE . AND STOP BRAGGING ABOUT YOUR LIFE STORY AND YOUR FAMILY . I DONT CARE .

okay bye

2010-05-11T22:30:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow : Organic Chemistry Quiz .
BRING IT ON

2010-05-10T00:46:00.003+08:00

We may not be together anymore , but we're still bestfriends .
Nurliana Arina Binte Samsari , I sincerely thank you for all the memories we had as a couple . You were definitely the best .
but hey , maybe we were not meant to be a couple , but more of bestfriends .
I will always want you in my life . remember all our promises hor !
Don't worry , every little thing is gonna be alright .
I promise you bestfriend :)

2010-04-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

Im truly disappointed by some of the friends around me . Some see me as insignificant , some unappreciative , some are just too egoistic that they think they're better and think they deserve respect . But please , look at yourself in the mirror . What good things have you ever done for me ?

However apparently you seem to bear some grudges towards me . As though i ruined your life or something . Why can't you see me succeed ? why must you be so unsupportive of the fact im doing much better than you ? Is it so hard to see a friend happy ? Apparently not for you .

And another one . Who just follows others like a slave . Whatever that friend asks you to do , you do . Without even thinking . You made a promise to me . And I AM the type of person who is ultimately particular about promises . If you happen to know me , you will realize i repel myself from friends who break my promises . It may seem like a small simple promise , but what you don't know is that the small promise you make is actually a package of my trust . and the wrapping of that packaging is your integrity and character . You drop the package , you lose it all . And yes by breaking that promise , you simply showed how much you valued me as a friend . Call me sensitive , call me childish . But I stick to my principles . I am a man of my words . and most importantly , i VALUE promises . If i know im not able to commit to it , i wont make that promise .

but seriously , none of you had the decent respect to even wait for a friend for like 5 minutes ? even after promising to meet me ?
and even when you went off , didn't any of you even think of telling me that you were going off first ? you had me run all the way to the bus stop , look for you like a fucking asshole , run all the way across the street to the coffee shop to use the public phone (because my prepaid was expired) , just to fucking call you to ask where the fuck you were . and you can simply say " oh we took the bus already . hahahaha " . You even had the guts to laugh . I dont know if you're stupid or just ignorant . Even though my prepaid was expired , you could still text me . you texted me in the fucking morning . why couldn't you fucking tell me that you were going off first . and the worse part about it was when i called you , you told me you had just boarded the bus . you could even say " im scared im late for school " . what fucking excuse is that ? it was only 8.20 and school starts at 9 . and it's only 6 damn stops . And you end up waiting for me in school also . aah screw you . So apparently it seems a bus is more important than me ah . 5 fucking minutes has more worth than me lah .
well if you want to treat me more useless than 5 minutes , then so will I . Yes i am disappointed with you guys .

p.s : if you're reading this and you know who you are , the reason i wanted to meet you was to tell you that my mom was willing to chip in that $400 for your laptop . But since it seems that a bus ride worth $0.69 is worth more than me , then why should i give you the privilege of my help . after all im not worth waiting 5 minutes for anyway .

2010-04-23T00:37:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel as though im a time bomb .
just ready to explode .

yes , i feel like exploding . but nobody wants to know .

they just want me to know their issues .

and im the tissue .

moral of the story is : im the issue tissue .

goodnight again .

2010-04-23T00:32:00.004+08:00

i'm simply tired okay . tired .

and please don't put me up with all the small petty issues .

i need to focus more on myself for now .

and im not referring to one specific person .

im referring to everyone in general .

goodnight .

note to self : smile when you're happy , smile when you're angry , smile when you're sad . this way nobody knows

2010-04-19T21:41:00.002+08:00

im gonna list down all the things that i know about myself . and im gonna be fucking honest . be it good or bad .

i am not very religiously inclined . somewhere in the middle i suppose
i love to laugh at people doing silly things
i dont like rude people . even though sometimes i can be .
i bear long , hateful grudges
i dont easily forgive someone . I forgive those who i see are very sincere . If i dont find you sincere and i tell you " naaah forget about it . its okay " , im simply lying through my teeth .
I am not okay when i say " yeah im okay . "
I dont like people asking me whether im okay . i get better if we just move on and simply make things better .
i sweat alot
my mother is indian . my grandfather is pure indian
i like to dress up maturely . i dont like wearing simple clothing .
i go for branded things
im pretty impatient
i am the kind of guy who gets very akward and shy when i have no friends around me
no actually i am pretty shy to people i find uncomfortable .
I get intimidated by people taller than me
sometimes i lie to make myself look better
sometimes i lie because i dont want to hurt you
sometimes i lie , but then later tell you the truth just for laughs
i am a pretty lazy person
i hate doing chores
i despise being reprimanded
i dont like following what others do . i prefer to lead
i get annoyed by people who talk big , but are actually empty inside
i dont like people who aren't humble
i admit i can be abit too generous
i spend without thinking
i take things for granted sometimes
i like people who interact with me more than i interact with them . just dont annoy me
i dont like people to rush me
i hate being told what to do
i like it when people follow the things i say
sometimes i want to be in control , but i always hope there will be someone willing to help me . im not a one man army
i like people who smile to me randomly , even if i dont know them
i dont know why but i adore cute people
i always understand and sympathize those who are in need
i never hesitate to help
i like making people happy
i loathe people who are "sombong"
i gossip about people behind their backs . duh , who doesn't
i like to kaypo about others . again , duh who doesn't . you guys must admit
i dont like being left out of a conversation
i can't bear to see a friend hurt
i never want to lose friends close to my heart
i would do anything within my capability to help those in need
BUT , i only help those i find deserving
i dont like being in hot places
i like to eat
i dont like being fat
sometimes i say things that i want to do , but i end up never doing it
i like it when people praise me
i can play the guitar
i always daydream about doing something i know i can never do ; kung fu fighting for example
im possesive about things i like
i dont like people who stare at my food when i eat
sometimes i wish i had a fairer skin tone . but naah i like the way i am
i get jealous easily , but i soon forget about it
i know i have the calibre to achieve , it is in me somewhere . i just need lotsa motivation
i appreciate and will always remember people who have helped me
i dont like people paying stuff for me . i can afford my things .
i always get songs stuck in my head .
i always wet my toothbrush before i put the toothpaste on .
i brush according to whatever rhythm of a song is in my head . sometimes i just brush like mad .
yes i do care about how my hair looks like .
my teeth aren't straight , but i dont care anymore . i used to be paranoid about it . but fuck it . it's just used to chew food .
i like to dig my nose privately .
sometimes i try to fart silently so nobody would notice
if i know it's gonna be a loud fart , i will just warn people im gonna fart . and just let loose .
if im in class and i get a RANDOM erection which is really damn obvious , i will try to find an seemingly unattractive girl to turn me off . Or i just sit down and wait for " my little brother " to chill .
i like to catch glimpses of pretty girls . but when it strikes me that im attached , i feel guilty and then i apologize to liana in my heart .
okay im a guy , and to be honest , i look at girl's boobs when they're kinda revealing .
if im with the guys and ALL of then notice the boobs , after the girl walks past , we all look at each other and go " OOOSSSHH :O "
i have a very mild case of atopic eczema . and if you're googling for pictures of atopic eczema , dont worry . mine's not like that . its just abit at the folds of my elbows and knees
and yes i am very uncomfortable about my skin condition , so if you realize , i RARELY wear shorts . i prefer to cover them up .
i dont like the thought of people gossiping about me
i like to wriggle my toes
i have this habit of biting my nails in class . okay i dont bite them off , but i just bite them .
i dont like waking up knowing i haven't slept enough hours .
i like to smile at people . even though i dont know them
i like to make people laugh .
i think im a funny person
i know im capable and reliable .
i am humble
i dont like the thought if hanging out with this bunch of friends , while another bunch of friends are hating me because i dont hang out with them .
i dont interact much with my relatives .
i like little kids . but im not a paedophile . I just love how happy and cheerful they are .
i laugh at children who cry .
i scratch when i get hot and sweaty
i dont like being disgusting . i prefer being neat and tidy and hygenic
i get stage-fright
when i just quarreled with someone , i will always imagine myself beating the person up with my super god-like powers . like those in the hindustan movies .
i am not ashamed to say i am half indian .
my right eyelid is sometimes single . sometimes double .
i have 2 stupid warts . one beside the bridge of my nose . one on my left eyelid
i wanna keep a beard . but not too hairy . just simple and cool
i cry sometimes
i curse myself badly . like seriously badly when i know i can't do anything to help the others around me .
i try to make every living day happy . even if im sad . i just fake a smile .
i love seeing people happy . well hopefully not happy at my misery ah . or happy without me
i care the most about the people closest to heart
i dont care what you think about me after this post . at least my conscience is clear about me being true to myself and not having to lie about who i am . this is me .

2010-04-19T20:01:00.002+08:00

school has FINALLY started . let me emphasize on the word finally . yes finally . well its only the first day but im getting the hang of poly life . yes im embracing change . the first day is always the most unorganized and messy . I had alot of admin things i had to handle ,being the class rep , like the payment and collecting of notes and all . BUT LUCKILY , i had awesome classmates who were so eager and willing to help me . THANKS GUYS !

anyway , its only the first day but im already like a no lifer . i just finished an hour of maths . which i dont know why i did . i think im doing it just so to get used to studying everyday . IM NOT STUDYING HARD . LET ME REITERATE , IM NOT STUDYING HARD.

im just studying consistently . hohohohoho ~

okay guys have fun .

2010-04-18T01:29:00.002+08:00

i fake a smile every day of my life so that others don't have to be sad .
i smile so hard i'm hurting inside .
i smile so wide it seems real .
i smile so cheerfully people assume i'm sincere .
i find myself too forgiving sometimes .

But i'm just used to the pain .

smile Khairul smile .

nothing will go away

2010-04-15T22:45:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i don't know why i fake a smile every single day of my life . Is it because i can't bear to affect the others around me ? Or am i just crazy . Honestly sometimes i just can't bear the pressure and i just feel like crumbling . And I try to open up to the people around me but most of them don't even bother about my life . Heck , they have their own problems to settle . But sometimes people do listen to my problem , but whats the point ; they aren't in my shoes . All they can do is listen to me and advice . Call me egoistic but its hard for me to accept friends advice . Mainly because they don't see the whole picture of my trouble . They just think of the easiest way out . Honestly I appreciate all of your efforts but words can only go so far . And its at this checkpoint i feel like the weight of the world is resting upon my shoulders . And to be honest it's at this point of time that people choose not to bother with my life . I'm tired . Tired of life . Tired of constantly making the others around me happy . Tired of faking my smile . Tired of the friends who get jealous of my success . Tired of people putting me down every time i take a step up my stairs of success . Can't you for once make me happy ? For once be proud of who I am and what I am . Just be proud of me ? Is it so hard to ask for a pat on the back once in a while ? Do you really have to hurt me ? I'm not saying i'm always making you guys happy , but I know I have done a lot to please you guys . I have done a lot to help . Never once have i demanded credit . But tell me , is it so hard to give some ? will you get shot in the head and die or something ?
I'm always trying to make peace work between people , but i'm starting to realize i'm becoming the victim . It hurts a lot okay , it does . Another thing that hurts me is people who get pissed and angry at me for the slightest things . As though what i did is causing the end of the world for you . Must you really get angry and disappointed with me for matters so minute ? I'm just tired putting up with all of these . Give me a break please . I'm always smiling and acting happy just so the people around me feel happy and comfortable . Just so nobody has issues with one another and we just have fun . But people see me as annoying . They rather i shut up and mind my own business . If you really want it its not hard . I can easily fuck off from everybody's lives . Would that make everyone happy ? I'd be glad to anyway . If nobody really needs me , then its fine with me . I won't need anybody too . I can just lead my own life doing my own things . It's not that hard for me to become an introvert .
I feel like just breaking down and scream my lungs out where nobody can hear me . And i don't know who's really there for me , or who's just claiming they're there for me . I just feel very lost and confused . I need someone to guide me . I need help . But i just don't know what to do with myself .
People hate me , I know , but it's okay . I'm not forcing anyone to like me anyway . I'm not demanding everyone to be a really good friend to me . But if you hate me , reflect upon yourself . Why do you really hate me . Is it because i stop you from having your way or say ? Or is it because people hate you anyway .
I just don't want to bother anymore . I'm just tired , very tired .
Goodnight readers

2010-04-11T19:32:00.002+08:00

EMenishatuga@hotmail.com says (6:55 PM):
ok babe im SORRY, please forgive me..?!

; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:56 PM):
what ?

EMenishatuga@hotmail.com says (6:56 PM):
hey

; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:56 PM):
?

EMenishatuga@hotmail.com says (6:56 PM):
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; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:56 PM):
wrong fucker

EMenishatuga@hotmail.com says (6:56 PM):
nice, I just got off work and finally got some time to relax which site did i msg you from again?

; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:57 PM):
fuck you

EMenishatuga@hotmail.com says (6:57 PM):
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; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:57 PM):
FUCK YOU BITCH
ASSHOLE

EMenishatuga@hotmail.com says (6:57 PM):
i wish you could i'm very wet right now

; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:57 PM):
YOUR MOMMA'S PUSSY IS LIKE A NIGGA'S MOUTH

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; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:58 PM):
SLUT
FUCKIN ASSHOLE

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; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:58 PM):
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; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:59 PM):
GO FUCK A DOG OR SOMETHING

EMenishatuga@hotmail.com says (6:59 PM):
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; Khairul is away . up up and away says (6:59 PM):
FUCK NO

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; Khairul is away . up up and away says (7:01 PM):
GO FUCK A POLE AND TEAR YOUR VAGINA UP BITCH

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; Khairul is away . up up and away says (7:02 PM):
go fill up your hole with hydrochloric acid so that it burns right through your asshole
and whoever fucks you will get anal sex as well

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fill out your cc info baby for verification ONLY, their card will not be charged.
What color Panties do you think i should wear? i might have you favorite color here somewhere...

; Khairul is away . up up and away says (7:04 PM):
you should wear your momma's used sanitary pads

EMenishatuga@hotmail.com says (7:04 PM):
Your such a good boy, i'm gonna show you what good boys deserve.. you can tell me to do anything you want me too!

; Khairul is away . up up and away says (7:07 PM):
i want you to fuck off and go die in a drain

WHAT THE FUCK SIA .
THIS STUPID WEBCAM SCAMS ARE FUCKING ANNOYING .

THEY ADD YOU UP RANDOMLY AND ASK YOU TO SEE THEM WEBCAM NAKED
FUCK YOU.

but this made me laugh though

2010-04-05T23:33:00.002+08:00

Have i mentioned that poly is really fun .

i came to school with Shahida today and went in to meet Iza .

and Iza was standing there with some girl named Syafeqah , whom i think i instantly made friends with . and then came Ahmad , who i also suddenly became friends with . and then shahirah came . like permaisuri like that walk so slow . and im already good friends with her .

so we all like walk in the school like yaya papaya .

HAHAHAHAHAHA . im serious .

but i think its pretty cool . first day of poly and we like already have a clique .

and lunchtime the 6 of us went to KFC and talk talk talk macam dah members gitu eh ~

and i dont know whats wrong with Shahirah . she keeps laughing and laughing and laughing at everything i say as though she's never heard a joke . up to a point her eyes teared because she laughed too much .

tapi dah nasib . i also dont know whether the things i say are funny , but people keep laughing .

2010-04-02T00:35:00.002+08:00

ISSUE # 16546213

POLYTECHNIC

as you all may know , poly is starting soon . and the stress is already building up upon me . so i shall write down 10 things that i like about poly so far , and the 10 things that i just loathe .

HATE

the stupid online bridging programme . i mean SERIOUSLY , you expect me to understand amaths just by looking at a screen and practicing on my own ? SCREW YOU
all the fuckin' forms that need to be filled up and sent in and URGH
adjusting to the new environment
thinking of what to wear very single day
SOMBONG COURSEMATES . SHAHIRAH WOULD KNOW WHO IM REFERRING TOO
ANNOYING/FLIRTY COURSEMATES . SHAHIRAH WOULD STILL KNOW WHO IM REFERRING TO
the fact my brain karat already after all the months of holidays
fear of lookin like a fool when school starts
tough competition in the course since everyone is roughly of the same academic standard
people in the course trying to act like yaya papaya because they think they're smarter than others . i mean come on , you're in the same course

LIKES

the fact ♥ is in the same poly as me :D
SHAHIRAWWRRRRR! :D
NO MORE HOLIDAYS LIKE FINALLY
finally being able to lose all the holiday accumulated lemak babats =.=
MAKING MORE FRIENDS
being in a good course *wink*
THE FACT IT'S LIKE 5 BUS STOPS AWAY FROM MY HOUSE SIA
AND LIKE MOST OF MY FRIENDS ARE THERE . sorry azri . nyp pun nyp lah . friend still friend
A TOTALLY NEW ENVIRONMENT
im not gonna say hot chicks ah because liana's gonna kill me and masak rendang . but i suppose doing something that i really enjoy

and shahirah here's something you should know about me , I ACCEPT ANY KINDS OF DARES ( terms and conditions apply ) . BUT DARE ME , AND YOU'RE DEAD ! AND LIANA WILL COOK ASAM PEDAS OUT OF YOU ! MUAHAHAHAHAHA ! no im serious about the asam pedas thing . do i look like im kidding to you ?

of course lah im kidding . hohohoho ! shahirah you're a really nice friend and it would be sad to make asam pedas out of you . because i wont eat it . and you will just basi . and im gonna have to throw you away .
RAWWWRRR

2010-03-30T11:39:00.001+08:00

i realised that the dew drop on the blades of grass you see every morning doesn't appear in the morning . I see it at 11pm at night .
wow fascinating

2010-03-26T20:38:00.002+08:00

Im no illuminati puppet .
and hell yeah i do know whats going on .
you ain't foolin me world .

you aint gonna .

2010-03-26T20:38:00.001+08:00

Im no illuminati puppet .

2010-03-20T11:04:00.003+08:00

i can't wait for school .

heck , i can't wait for orientation . i just wanna start a new life , new friends , new challenges , new enemies . all sorts of new stuff . but hey sure there's a downside . im predicting myself to struggle in poly . not because im stupid and i cannot make it . because im taking biomedical science . one of the tougher courses out there . but hey , sounds like fun . see the problem is i didn't take biology nor a.maths in secondary school . both of which is needed for my course . oh well too bad khairul suck it up . everyone can learn . i dont know i think im crazy to be looking forward to such a challenge . like gosh come on , just throw it at me . okay bye

2010-03-20T11:03:00.000+08:00

pretty much explains what i want my room to look like

2010-03-18T11:58:00.002+08:00

School hasn't even started , but i've already made some pretty cool friends .

Nur Shahirah
Nur Syahirah
Bala ~
Nadiah
Siti Nurmahsuri^^
Yue Jing
Nasiruddin
Sadhana
Ahmad Naufal

See , i have lotsa friends . enough to make a clique .

we shall call ourselves B^3 . thats B(cube) for all you idiots .

Cause we are the Budak-Budak-Biomed *kapoww*

2010-02-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

are you tired ?

i'm tired .

we're all tired aren't we .

why can't we just stay home and shake our legs .

boycott the Singaporean government .

we shall not do any work anymore until they give us free money .

and screw " foreign talent " .

we can just start civil war .

that way even they will be petrified of working here .

2010-02-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

Again , FUCK IT

2010-02-17T22:50:00.001+08:00

FUCK LAH SIA

2010-02-16T12:01:00.002+08:00

I am getting utterly bored with this so called " holidays " .

I wanna start school god damn it . have a new experience , make new friends , new enemies , make more mistakes and learn more from it . Rotting at home is disgusting , its just making me grow fatter each and everyday . and don't tell me " oh you have nothing to do , go exercise early in the morning lah " . you try . when you have no plans , tell me what time do you wake up ? late right obviously . by the time i wake up its like 10am like that . and no mood already .

but anyway i've decided to do something with my spare time . which is to go for the 59th Cadet Officer Course . fuck yeah . well obviously there are reasons as to why i want to go for it .

First and foremost reason because i miss NCC and i want to relive it again in a new experience . Secondly its because i want to have a committed lifestyle , so that i would always have some form of responsibility and won't always slack and slack and slack . Sooner or later i'd be too lazy to even study , and i dont want that .

Thirdly because it will help with my temasek poly scholarship application . my results were already amazing , and my cca is also a good back up . i just need my cca to be amazing also lor . So that they will look at me and say " wah this idiot not bad ah . " and taadaa present me with a scholarship . insya'allah . amin . heh .

oh and i miss Nabs alot alot alot

2010-02-14T22:58:00.001+08:00

sometimes in life ah , you have to act stupid . then people who believe you are actually stupid are the stupid ones . Because they don't know you're not stupid and they stupidly believe you're stupid . And there will come a point in time , or a so called " gamebreaker " where you blast out your intelligence and prove to them you are not stupid after all . and they will keep wondering " wow , i thought this fella was damn stupid . so stupid of me " . and making them think like that is just absolutely priceless . makes you grin and you start laughing inside . And you can go around proving that you are definitely and positively not stupid . And if you don't understand the message i'm trying to deliver then you're stupid . STUPID

2010-02-11T11:24:00.002+08:00

wow the post below was my 200th post . i sooo didn't know that .

okay , tuesday i went to Ubin with the guys and my dad to go fishing .

yeah i can catch fish .

2010-02-08T13:23:00.002+08:00

I dont think i can call myself a pure malay .

i said malay , not muslim .

MALAY .

its because i have the following cultures in my ancestors

malay
chinese
portugese
indian
indonesian

kinda weird don't you think ?

my dad is malay , his dad is malay , his dad's grandfather is portugese
my dad's mom is chinese .
my mom is indian , her dad is pure indian . indian muslim lah . but really pure indian , migrated from madras india .
his name was Shaik Alaudin . damn i could have had a shaik in my name . . . . .

my mom's mom is malay ,
my mom's grandmother is indonesian .

well the indonesian part is kidna far anyway .

but still it counts .

okay im still malay , my IC says so

2010-01-28T20:19:00.002+08:00

Fadfad found her kindergarten class photo , and she told me the girl sitting beside her looked like Liana . TURNS OUT IT REALLY WAS LIANA !

look at them 2 ! SOOO CUTE ! HAAAAAAA !

somehow fazirah still looks the same .

and i dont know if thats really Syahirah , but DAMN ! AHAHAHAHA !

she looks so weird ! no offence actually .

and i just happened to know the guy there .

i dont even know why im so kaypo as to post the picture here

2010-01-26T23:51:00.002+08:00

Look at the yellow line on the map . thats basically the whole east side .

Me , Mir , Zabir , Afiq , Syafiq and Nizar .

6 idiots on a cycling journey .

39.5KM .

2010-01-19T20:36:00.002+08:00

erm i've been having alot of chalets recently .

i just had one yesterday . slept overnight , came home this morning .

had fun definitely . couldn't stop laughing my ass off with Azri

hebeh hebeh bebeh ~

but other than that ,

im doing fine .

i really have no idea what to blog right now .

but oh yeah , Suaibah gave me a fucking lame joke yesterday night

" who is the strongest criminal ? "

and the answer was " shoplifter " . . . because he can lift a shop .

wth

peace out asswipes

2010-01-14T20:24:00.001+08:00

i dont know whats up with me and guitars

2010-01-13T20:03:00.002+08:00

i changed my mind .

i dont wanna go to TPJC , after looking at the subject combinations .

I dont like the combinations lah . so boring .

H2 Chemistry , H2 Economics , H2 Geography and H1 Mathematics .

so boring , only chemistry i like .

and the other combinations all not suitable for me , because most of it offers mathematics as a H2 subject .

and you need your amaths in O levels to start off with . i didn't take amaths =.=

i dont want to struggle like fuck . might as well i go to an awesome polytechnic course .

SO . . . i have decided to apply for Biomedical Science in Singapore poly .

9 points huhu ~

good thing i got my cca . L1R4 = 10 , minus 2 cca bonus points = 8 = WOOHOO

something to be proud of you know .

go for the best poly , and going for the best course .

insya'allah . amin .

peace out asswipes

2010-01-12T15:25:00.002+08:00

i did some thinking last night .

and i decided what i want to do with my life .

Firstly im going to study hard but CONSISTENTLY .

yes i do study , duh .

and ace my A levels .

proceed to NS . do fucking well for my BMT .

and get into OCS .

woooooo become an NS officer ~

okay after that's done ,

proceed to University for my degree .

and im gonna go for the 3 year one , not the 2 year .

it just seems gay .

and after my degree , work for like 2 years or so .

then go for my masters . insya'allah .

then taadaa get married lor .

buy a house , have sex , have children .

then just go with the flow

2010-01-11T18:59:00.002+08:00

i am humble and pleased with my O level results .

my hard work did pay off okay .

i have to thank all those who have motivated me and supported me .

Nizar , Azri , Zabir , Syafiq ,Liana , Mr Tan , Miss Chua Cheng Ying , Mr Lourds , Mdm Noreha ; etc

AIYA EVERYONE LAH !

im very very happy :D

you guys believed in me , helped me and pushed me on .

Thanks guys !

4 distinctions .

L1R4 = 10

L1R5 = 14

English = A2

Maths = A2

Science = A1 FTW !

Dnt = A2

Combined Humanites = B4 Bullshit

Malay = B3 . Bullshit also . i re-sit the paper also no difference . idiot .
CCA = A2 . hehe 2 bonus points

But DAMN , i never expected these results .

Alhamdullilah .

i can sleep soundly tonight

2010-01-07T22:02:00.004+08:00

i was super bored okay

2010-01-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

i did a couple of blog hopping today

and i read some people's blogs

and they were like describing about their lessons and their teachers .

cursing teachers , friends , subjects .

then like jumping for joy that there's CCA ,

or complaining there's CCA .

and im like .....

NABEH CHEEBYE LAH I WANT SCHOOL LIKE SO BADLY NOW

PLEASE !

I WANT MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE BACK!

IT WAS THE BEST TIME OF MY LIFE !

so far .

but still alaaaaaaa

i want school .

i want the smell of the morning air when i walk to school every morning .

looking at people go down the bus .

walking in the entrance and greeting teachers ( teachers don't deny , i do greet you guys )

saying whats up to the guys and all

going to the snack shop and talk crap with the auntie and uncle

keep asking for discount .

assembling , singing the national anthem weirdly and giggling about it

strolling into class , moaning to greet teachers .

falling asleep during Mdm Noreha's lessons

getting excited about Mr Tan's physics lessons .

feeling happy about Miss Chan's Chemistry lessons .

because she's cute . and honestly i stare at her when she teaches .

she's very cute ~ and i love it when she giggles at our class' jokes .

so cute .

and Mr Koh . his D&T lessons are one of a kind .

doesn't seem like lessons anyway . because we have fun .

its like we're all friends .

and us D&T students always disturb his Ah-Beng way of talking

and Mr Lourds' EPIC maths lessons !

hahahahahahahahahahahahah!

the way he talks is sooooo funny lor .

and his never ending motivational speeches .

" four eeeeeeee fouuuuuuuuurrrr ! now is the time to make sacrificesssssssssssssssssssss . yeeeeeeeeees . NOW IS THE TIME TO DO YOUR MAAAAAAAAAAATHHS !

yayayayaya "

so funny lah the way he draaaaaaaaaaaaaggggss the words he speaks !

and Mdm Alimah . her malay lessons somehow taught me alot more than malay .

i dont think it taught me malay at all . okay some .

but her lessons are actually more on character building .

if you come to think of it , she says alot of things that does impact us badly , but she wants the best for us . i can tell she wants the best for us . oh my gosh , i miss Cikgu D:

she was like our very own Grandmother lor .

oh and hahahahaha geography lessons .

its more of " make fun of farhan and cristabel with mean mean jokes "

Mrs Lee LOVES TO SAY MEAN STUFF TO US .

LOVES .

she will insult you so directly , its like a thousand daggers that just poke through your heart .

and her pronounciation of the letter S . very sssssssharp . like the hissing of a snake .

" FARHAN ! DON'T TRY TO ACT SSSSSSSTUPID HERE . IF YOU KEEP ACTING SSSSSSTUPID YOU WILL BECOME SSSSSSSSSSTUPID . NO WAIT , YOU ALREADY ARE SSSSSSSSSTUPID "

*giggles*

i dont wanna talk about Social Studies .

hardly pay attention anyway . dont even know how i made it through for the O levels .

damn i miss everything about school now .

like eating in the canteen together .

playing soccer/takraw at that red area outside the canteen .

staying back till 7pm in the dnt workshop doing dont know what crap .

walking pass certain classes just to look at pretty girls .

purposely sporting long hair and facial hair just to irritate the teachers *hehehehehehe*

not wearing school socks to irritate them further .

going to the toilet just to adjust our hair .

making sex noises while peeing . seriously .

arguing about who gets to go first at the water coolers .

walking past sec 1 classes and act macho .

getting excited to answer teacher's questions .

going to the whiteboard to write down the answer because i feel like it .

scribbling on the whiteboard for absolutely no reason .

disturbing WeiZheng by calling him Arraw everytime i see him .

just having fun in school lah .

thats what i go to school for .

if only we could remain Sec 4 forever . that would be awesome .

don't get me started on NCC , if not you'll be reading this post until tomorrow